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The Weekend Neos Kosmos : 22 July 2017
DIGITAL.NEOSKOSMOS.COM THE WEEKEND NEOS KOSMOS | SATURDAY 22 JULY 2017 23 LIFESTYLE information was so calming. I was looking at her - she asked me not to take a photo - and all I could see was a normal woman. It felt like I was visiting a friend in their home; she was simple, undone. I don't know how she will perceive this comment but I prefer her in person than on social media. She felt real. At some point I started believing her statements and caught myself wanting them to come true. "Listen," she said interrupting my train of thought. "We want to believe that what we want to hear is true, that it applies to us. So we tend to let go and wait. But it's up to us. "The questions we pose and the feelings we get during a card reading apply more to the what and why. What do I want to know? Why do I want to know? Why do I feel this way? Answering these questions truthfully is what we should be doing. Understanding ourselves, what it is on the outside we choose to be defined by from time to time and taking control." She understands that people going to psychics are seeking reassurance or help for a stressful period, that they might be going through bereavement that is clouding their thoughts. They place that power into her hands and the supernatural, perhaps because it is easier than taking action but she tries to make them take that power back and recalibrate it. "It's important to deeply understand what burdens us and know ourselves. If we can't pick us up, who will? "Sure life sometimes causes confusion, often preventing us from finding the will to do so. People come to me and sometimes they want to soothe their pain even if they already know the answers. We are all connected, Nelly, and this power flows. We have energy, auras. Some people are more open and they can see the energy, understand and manipulate it. "When people are hurting; they are vulnerable. Sadness can significantly slow someone down and sometimes their energy is blocked. I try to help them see what the universe or their mind, their intuition already knows but the eyes or the body can't cope with. A real psychic is a healer and a guide." I'm listening to her while she prepares another deck, one that she has made based on the tarot philosophy, but extended it to over 150 cards, adding her own interpretations that apply to the modern world. "Anyone can do tarot for me, but how do the meanings apply clearly to the problems people are faced with today? So I've made my own deck and I don't let anyone touch it." I look at the deck and it doesn't seem dark or magic, it looks more like a game. I go along with it and choose 28 cards that Fotini mixes up and then places in some astrology-based formation. It's a two-layer spread. One of the first pairs is the health card and water, and it's negative. "You don't drink water Nelly. Why are you doing this to yourself? Drink more water!" She didn't ask if perhaps I'm not drinking enough, she stated it. An hour before I left my colleague sitting next to me had made a point out of me not having touched my water. Indeed I was carrying the same small bottle from home to the office and vice versa since Monday morning. It was Thursday evening. No refills. That's me. My mum still calls from Greece to remind me to drink water . . . In the couple of days before my reading, I was onto something that was upsetting me. I hadn't told anyone about the person involved, the nature of my own actions and how it had upset me. Fotini laid down a little spread and again, told me off: "You are doing this (she was very specific). It involves a person that looks like (insert accurate description), is related to you in this way and this interaction is affecting you deeply.” She described the situation to the point I was embarrassed and insisted I removed myself from the equation. She couldn't have known about that unless she was watching my every move. Again I found myself wanting to act like she was wrong, but instead I let go. She told me many things, some I already knew, and some hard to believe that of course I can't share publicly but my readings were far more exciting, to the point I am starting to doubt myself. I was sitting in an unknown woman's apartment, me, fixated on critical thinking, breathing in the words of a psychic and feeling better hearing things I already knew or was too scared to accept come out of her mouth rather than mine. Does searching for ‘other- worldly’ solutions make acceptance easier for everyone? "There are so many things in this world that we can't understand, Nelly," she told me as if she was seeing right through me. She did that quite a bit. "We don't fully comprehend time and space yet. We can accept what we see, but we can all agree there is only so much we are allowed to see. If you were to tell people 5000 years ago that the earth is round, what do you think would happen?" We all have questions and as mundane and trivial as they might seemingly be at their core, they hide much more serious issues to be dealt with. Human beings are very complicated and usually choose to ask about more simple matters when they see psychics, which reflects on very complex issues having to do with how they carry themselves through life. "People want answers. I of- fer what I see. That may be good or bad. The difference between a spiritually gifted person and an impostor is that the first will encourage the person in front of them to seek help within. To face the issues and the deeper nature of the questions inside them. To use the predictions to think. To assess and reassess, not to take off and run life accordingly." Fotini wrote down what she saw. Series of events. The nature of those events, initials, numbers, dates, signs. Whether it was on the cards or inside the darkest darkness of my cup (she said it was the least clear she'd ever seen) she showed me and I have to confess, I could see it too. Not because I wanted to see it but because in that coffeesmeared mug there were clear numbers and faces and other recognisable symbols. "Sit back and wait for it," she told me, laughingly informing me I would find myself messaging her within the next few days. “As for the rest of it, a true psychic leads a searching person to become independent, on a path of self-discovery. Even if I offer you, or whoever I see answers, you still have to work on what these answers mean to you and why they make you feel the way you feel." I haven't yet messaged Fotini about her reading, only to inform her that my story is being published. "Write whatever you want about me," she said, "I know it can't be bad." She took a risk, since part of me booked an appointment to prove to myself that there's no substance to such practices but I've already come to work three times waving my phone from a distance screaming "Oh, my God. You won't believe what happened." What has happened is I'm actually drinking water now. What has happened is that I've stopped doing what was making me upset and that was only 1/10 of what she ‘prescribed’. I left her apartment feeling better and shifted my focus onto myself again. Am I converted? One thing is for sure, some people can see right through you and regardless of the means, they can make you feel better, and own up to your responsibilities. If it had to take being confronted by a psychic to get me back on the right track, so be it.
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